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I WISH I was as cute as my avatar.
Current Location:
my apartment
Current Mood:
tired tired
Current Music:
the rain
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I hate living in the US more and more every day.
I want to move back to Monntreal.
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Age Discrimination in Washington
Aaron and I just got kicked out of a restaurant because I'm not 21. Not a bar, a restaurant.

In Washington state, no one under the age of 21 is even allowed in a bar. Not all states are like this, though I'm sure many are. Fine--someone who cannot legally drink cannot legally enter a place where the primary purpose is drinking. Ok, it's irritating when it comes to shows held at bars, and I don't agree with the drinking age, but this is a logical extension of the drinking age laws. I can deal with that, even if it's a little irritating.

But restaurants? I mean, yes, this restaurant happened to also have a bar. It was a nicer restaurant, we were not sitting at the bar and neither of us ordered an alcoholic drink--and we got carded. Because legally I can't be in there, despite the fact that we were there to eat, in a part of the establishment where the primary purpose was to dine. Now, not all restaurants with a bar are off limits to the under 21 crowd--in fact, I've been to a couple here where there was no sign posted (there's always a sign posted if it's 21+, we just didn't see it) and no one carded us. I'm not sure what the differentiating factor is, though I'm going to look.

Either way, the idea that there are restaurants that I can't go to, because I am under 21, despite the fact that I am a legal adult, and despite the fact that I am there with the legitimate purpose of eating, is absolutely fucking ridiculous, and I don't understand how it doesn't qualify as age discrimination. Anyone? Can someone with better legal understanding than I explain this to me?

So. Fucking. Angry. It's angering and embarrassing and made me feel guilty for being 19.

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FYI
People can write their name as anonymous, but I won't be offended by anything anyone says. I'm really curious to know how people actually view me vs. what appears in my head, and it's helpful to know who is saying what.
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People should do this!
http://kevan.org/johari?name=fadedlyric

http://kevan.org/nohari?name=fadedlyric

People can write their name as anonymous, but I won't be offended by anything anyone says. I'm really curious to know how people actually view me vs. what appears in my head, and it's helpful to know who is saying what.

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Meme
I will figure out how to put this behind a cut at some point...

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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Meme
1. Pick 15 of your favourite movies. 
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie. 
3. Post them here for everyone to guess. 
4. Strike it out when someone guesses correctly, and put who guessed it and the movie. 
5. NO GOOGLING/using IMDb search functions.

1. “Cheers make girls do stupid cartwheels. Orgasms make people feel good.” (But I'm a Cheerleader, guessed by iris_on_tape)
2. “You gotta think about it like the first time you got laid. You gotta go: ‘Daddy, are you sure this is right?’” (Tank Girl, guessed by lux_fiat)
3. “But captain, to obey - just like that - for obedience's sake... without questioning... That's something only people like you do.” (Pan's Labyrinth, guessed by adreamofhorses)
4. “Everything that you wanted I have done. You asked that the child be taken. I took him. You cowered before me, I was frightening. I have reordered time. I have turned the world upside down, and I have done it all for *you*! I am exhausted from living up to your expectations of me. Isn't that generous?” (Labyrinth, guessed by adreamofhorses)
5. “She doesn't relate to other people. She was always a lonely child.” (Amelie, guessed by lux_fiat)
6. “If your prick is as limp as your verse, no price can buy time enough.”
7. “Dear Diary, I am writing in your bullshit pages because my shrink is crazier then I am.”
8. “Have you ever had sex with a man before?” “Yeah, once.” “And?” “And... I could have done that with a German Shepard.” -or- "It was like a puppy. It was like, love me, love me, love me, love me... I did. I did right away."
9. “What? 'Cause I did? I climbed on top of myself and got myself pregnant?” (Save the Last Dance, guessed by rubberduckgrrl)
10. “It's funny how beautiful people are when they're walking out the door.” (Velvet Goldmine, guessed by riverdancer)
11. “Too many guys think I'm a concept, or I complete them, or I'm gonna make them alive. But I'm just a fucked-up girl who's lookin' for my own peace of mind; don't assign me yours.” (Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, guessed by Carly)
12. “Lesbian? Lesbian? Are you fucking kidding me, you think I'm a LESBIAN?” “You're a girl in love with a girl, aren't you?” “No! I'm PAULIE in love with TORI. Remember? And Tori, she is, she IS in love with me because she is mine and I am hers and neither of us are LESBIANS!” (Lost and Delirious, guessed by verberantia)
13. “No this is not a love story, but it is a story about love. About those who give in into it, and the price they pay. And those who run away from it, because they are afraid, or because they do not believe they're worthy of it. She ran away. He gave in.”
14. “Fear gets you killed. Anger keeps you alive.” (Battlestar Galactica, guessed by rubberduckgrrl)
15. “I do ballet because it has nothing to do with the people. Give me tiaras and boys in tights any day.” (Center Stage, guessed by 1wingedangel222)

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Current Location:
my bedroom
Current Mood:
hungry hungry
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last exam
i just finished my last mcgill exam.
i don't even really care that i actually missed one of the four short answer questions, so my highest grade possibly is a 90%.
why? because that was my last motha-fuckin' mcgill exam ever.
bitchez.
Current Location:
monkeigh's room
Current Mood:
accomplished accomplished
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Entertain me, Damnit!
Ninja Application
Pirate Application

I demand that people fill these out, if only for my entertainment.

[Note: I removed the Applications to be my Boyfriend or Girlfriend because they were just too damn offensive. Although I'm sure the other ones might be too...]

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random thoughts
i don't have the attention span for a four-year degree. my life seems to work in eighteen month stages before i get bored or otherwise feel the needs to move on.
Current Location:
home
Current Mood:
sleepy sleepy
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Public Service Announcement
According to my sources, there has been a lot of speculation about a connection between Aaron leaving yesterday and me leaving after this semester. While we've both made decisions to leave McGill and Montréal, these decisions were made independently of each other. I decided to leave McGill because the structure of McGill itself and the type of students who attend McGill do not mesh with my idea of what getting a degree in social work should look like (not to mention that the BSW program here is Québec-specific and I would have to get re-certified when I inevitably moved back to the States). If anyone would like a more in-depth explanation, I would be willing to give one; however I do not wish to write a long explanation.

I just wanted to make this clear because regardless of my relationship status with Aaron, my choice to leave was made independent of his decision to join the army, and I find this to be a very important detail.

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Current Location:
home, with the lovely roomie
Current Mood:
sleepy sleepy
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random thought
how is it that in most societies, getting paid to kill people is considered noble and honourable, and a cause for respect, while getting paid to pleasure people is considered immoral and dishonourable, and a cause for condemnation?
Current Location:
home
Current Mood:
hungry/tired hungry/tired
Current Music:
"catapult" - counting crows
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Books
These are the top 106 books most often marked as "unread" by LibraryThing’s users. bold what you have read, italicize what you started, but couldn’t finish, and strike through what you couldn’t stand. Add an asterisk to those you’ve read more than once. Underline those on your to-read list.

Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell
Anna Karenina
Crime and Punishment
Catch-22
One Hundred Years of Solitude (I read parts of it in Spanish, but never got a chance to finish it, though I wanted to)
Wuthering Heights (I read parts of it to a friend who had a hard time concentrating...I would like to finish it though)
The Silmarillion
Life of Pi : A Novel
The Name of the Rose
Don Quixote
Moby Dick
Ulysses
Madame Bovary
The Odyssey
The Kite Runner
Mrs. Dalloway
Great Expectations (I was in a play, too)
American Gods
A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius
Atlas Shrugged (I refuse to read anything by Ayn Rand)
Reading Lolita in Tehran: a memoir in books
Memoirs of a Geisha
Middlesex
Quicksilver
Wicked: the Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West
The Canterbury Tales
The Historian: A Novel
A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man
Love in the Time of Cholera
Brave New World (Loved it. I love dystopic novels)
The Fountainhead (Again, I hate her)
Foucault’s Pendulum
Middlemarch
Frankenstein, or, The Modern Prometheus
The Count of Monte Cristo
Dracula
A Clockwork Orange
Anansi Boys
The Once and Future King
The Grapes of Wrath
The Poisonwood Bible: A Novel
1984
Angels & Demons
The Inferno
The Satanic Verses
Sense and Sensibility
</u>The Picture of Dorian Gray</u>
Mansfield Park
One Flew over the Cuckoo’s Nest
To the Lighthouse
Tess of the D’Urbervilles
Oliver Twist
Gulliver’s Travels
Les Misérables
The Corrections
The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier and Clay
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time
Dune
The Prince
The Sound and the Fury
Angela’s Ashes: a Memoir***
The God of Small Things
A People’s History of the United States: 1492-present (We read parts of it for AP US History...I liked it though)
Cryptonomicon
Neverwhere
A Confederacy of Dunces
A Short History of Nearly Everything
Dubliners
The Unbearable Lightness of Being
Beloved
Slaughterhouse Five
The Scarlet Letter
Eats, Shoots & Leaves
The Mists of Avalon***
Oryx and Crake: A Novel
Collapse: How Societies Choose to Fail or Succeed
Cloud Atlas
The Confusion
Lolita
Persuasion
Northanger Abbey
The Catcher in the Rye***
On the Road
The Hunchback of Notre Dame
Freakonomics: A Rogue Economist Explores the Hidden Side of Everything
Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance: An Inquiry into Values
The Aeneid
Watership Down
Gravity’s Rainbow
The Hobbit (Tolkein was a bloody boring writer)
In Cold Blood: A True Account of a Multiple Murder and Its Consequences
White Teeth
Treasure Island
David Copperfield

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Chasing Amy
I recently rewatched "Chasing Amy" for the first time since high school and it made me think.

Plot synopsis: Boy meets Girl. Girl self-identifies as a lesbian. Boy and Girl become best friends. Boy falls for Girl. Girl admits she fell for Boy too. Boy and Girl date and everything is wonderful and amazing. Boy finds out that he's not the first boy to fuck Girl, in fact, Girl had a threesome (resulting in the nickname "Fingercuffs") in high school. Boy freaks out about Girl's sexual history. Girl says that she tried it all but is never felt satisfied until him, but refuses to apologise for her past. Boy decides that the solution is to ask Girl to have a threesome with Boy and his best friend (with whom there's tension about the relationship between Boy and Girl). Girl says "no, you really don't want this, I'm past that stage in my life, I only want you," etc. Boy insists that it's the only way for things to work and pulls the "I need this, if you loved me," etc crap. Girl says no again, says she loves Boy, but she's not his whore. Girl slaps Boy in the face and walks out. Fast forward one year. Boy writes a comic called "Chasing Amy" for/about Girl. Boy gives Girl comic, wishes Girl well, and invites Girl to call Boy. When Girl's girlfriend returns to the table and asks who Boy is, Girl says, "Just some guy I used to know" and Girl throws comic on the ground.

The point? No matter how much you love someone, no matter how much they matter in your life, and no matter how amazing things were/are, there always have to be lines that no one can cross, you have to be strong enough to know when they've crossed that line and to kick them the fuck out of your life. We seem to think that if we love someone, we should forgive them for anything they do, but that's crap. There are some lines that if people cross, even or especially if we love them, we can't forgive them without losing our self-respect and dignity.

I know I let people, particularly specific people, get away with a lot. But I think I really do have those lines, and I'll recognise when they're crossed, and be strong enough to not allow that person back into my life if they cross it. My lines are hard to reach when I love someone, but they're there. There are very few things that I find unforgivable, and being fickle, not knowing yourself well enough, not understanding yourself, being clueless, fucking up, handling things poorly, etc, are not unforgivable sins. I hope the people I love will never reach those lines, because I don't want to lose them, but if they do, well, I won't lose my self-respect and dignity for anyone.

Current Location:
home
Current Mood:
contemplative (and sick) contemplative (and sick)
Current Music:
reel big fish - "she has a girlfriend now"
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The beginning of schools means that I'm busy, and being busy allows me to not care as much about people and things that aren't going well in my life.
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SPP Protest
The protest in Ottawa against the SPP went well. One source said around 5,000 people; Max estimated it at around 2,000. So, somewhere around there. It stayed peaceful, no arrests, no violence. Lots of police though, particularly around the American embassy. The cops filmed us as an intimidation tactic. I took a picture of them in return. They don't much like that. I kind of wish I could be at the protest in Montebello, where they've already used tear gas and the like, but the risk of deportation isn't worth it yet.
Current Location:
home
Current Mood:
anxious anxious
Current Music:
"a lack of color" - death cab for cutie
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random myspace surveys...because this is how i procrastinate.
surveys )
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Current Location:
home
Current Mood:
anxious anxious
Current Music:
none
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Stolen from Caela
Hi, my name is: Kathleen
Never in my life have I been: completely mentally healthy.
The one person who can drive me nuts is: myself.
High school: BHS
When I'm nervous: I don’t know how I act. I’m always anxious, but not nervous that I can remember.
The last song I listened to was: “Portions for Foxes” by Rilo Kiley.
If I were to get married right now my maid of honour would be: naked. Because it’d be a naked ceremony.
My hair is: always uneven, and therefore I’m always cutting bits and pieces of it...it’s a vicious cycle.
When I was 5: I was the smartest and sweetest and ugliest little girl in the world. I was just full of so much good even though I was an ugly duckling.
Last Christmas: was as thoroughly depressing as every other Christmas, but at least not memorable.
I should be: working on my research project so that I can get paid and stop being poor.
When I look down I see: freckled skin and a black tank top.
The happiest recent event was: at least a month ago, and probably had to do with Monkeigh.
If I were a character on 'Friends' I'd be: I don’t remember the characters...
By this time next year: I hope to be the person that I like, the person I know I am but just can’t access right now...
My current gripe is: that I’m broke and can’t find a job.
I have a hard time understanding: any Asian language, ever.
There's this girl I know that: is somewhere near Vancouver right now and I miss her terribly.
You know I like you when: I actually make effort to spend significant amounts of (particularly one-on-one) time with you/talking to you.
If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be: my mommy, probably.
Take my advice: never. Not that I generally offer advice...that’s not how active listening works.
The thing I want to buy:...you might not be able to buy happiness, but money can make life easy enough to allow for the pursuit of happiness...and I want to buy that for my mom.
If you visited the place I was born: you would understand me a lot better.
I plan to visit: Virginia, this weekend.
If you spent the night at my house: I’d probably make you cuddle with me.
I'd stop my wedding if: the drugs wore off/I sobered up.
The world could do without: I think my philosophic and political answers to this question are at odds. Try again later.
I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than: have another long-distance monogamous relationship.
Most recent thing I've bought myself: was lunch at a faux-Mexican restaurant. I eat out way too much. I blame Aaron.
Most recent thing someone else bought me: was beer. Lots of it. I drink too much too. Again, I blame Aaron.
My favourite blonde is: on the other side of the world and may not remember I exist.
My favourite brunette is: unhealthy for me in oh so many ways.
My favourite black hair is: quite possibly only a dark-haired brunette. Alternatively, dead.
My favourite redhead is: supersuper busy right now.
My middle name is: Anne. We don’t talk about that.
In the morning I: am usually still asleep.
The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are: fish. Isn’t there some Aztec prophecy about flying fish? Or something?
Once, at a bar: a guy tried to buy me drinks and take me home...did I mention this was a gay bar?
Last night I was: enjoying BSG and ice cream with lovely friends.
There's this guy I know who: needs to figure his shit out (hint: it’s pretty much all of them).
If I was an animal I'd be: a very demanding and moody house cat...I would demand cuddles most of the time and other times just hide and hiss at anyone who disturbed my sleep.
A better name for me would be: something more interesting and possibly less feminine. Kayden? Kathlyn? I still like Ks though...
Tomorrow I am: getting a prescription for ADHD meds written, having breakfast with my co-organiser for CUQSC, turning in part two of my research project so I can get a paycheque next week, doing laundry, and packing for Virginia. Busy day.
Tonight I am: sleepy enough that I may not need drugs to sleep.
My birthday is: always a disaster.
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Current Location:
home
Current Mood:
sleepy sleepy
Current Music:
"Asshole" - Rilo Kiley
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Depressed. Not much to say or energy to say it with other than: everything's all fucked up right now. Really, all of it.

Thank you to my wonderful friends for their support, love, cuddles, food, etc though.

Current Mood:
depressed depressed
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Random Survey
1. Have you ever changed your clothes while in a vehicle?
I used to live out of my car.
2. Who was your last received call?
Monkeigh
3. What's your relationship status?
Monogamous and long-distance.
4. What's one thing you will not eat?
Souls. I threaten a lot, but I can never figure out how...
5. What color is your underwear?
It's too hot to wear underwear today, it's like 32 degrees!
6. What color is your bathing suit?
See through. And by see through, I mean I don't have one.
7. Random fact about yourself:
I have a love/hate relationship with university...which leans more on the hate side.
8. Have you ever drank milk straight out of the carton?
YUCK COW SECRETIONS!! Yeah, I guess I did when I was in elementary school and that's how they gave it to us.
10. Can you hula hoop?
Yeah, I'm pretty good at wiggling my hips.
11. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Only when I break into my mom's house because I forgot my key.
12. What was the last movie you watched?
But I'm a Cheerleader.
13. What book are you reading right now?
I'm reading some photocopied bit of Marxist theory.
14. Was today better than yesterday?
Pretty much the same, except it was more humid and gross today.
15. Is anyone getting on your nerves?
Yup. Pretty much everyone. Well, not everyone. But lots of people.
16. Do you talk to yourself?
I talk to myself as though I'm in a novel and reading it to myself.
17. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Yes, someday, hopefully.
18. Do you collect anything?
Meaniefaces. Oh, and kidneys.
19. Ever waxed your eyebrows?
Yup.
20. Earrings or necklaces?
Necklaces, though I have two earrings and one nosering in at all times.
21. Are you mad at anybody?
Resentful, bitter, annoyed...not mad.
22. What is your favorite color?
Shades of red.
23. What are you doing?
Talking to Monkeigh on gmail chat, pretending to be packing.
24. Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
Depends on who I'm talking to?
25. What are you doing tonight?
Packing, reading Marxist theory, missing random people.
26. What time is it?
16h34
27. Are you loud?
I'm only loud when I'm socially anxious. When I'm comfortable, I'm actually quiet.
28. What are you looking forward to?
Getting my apartment set up. Being finished with university. Travelling. Visiting beautiful people.
29. Do you watch Family Guy regularly?
Nope.
30. Have you ever watched a little kids show?
Yup!
31. What does your last outbox text say?
"Duck? Is everything ok?"
32. What's your zodiac sign?
Aquarius
33. Are you wearing socks?
No, if it's too hot to wear underwear, you think I'm gonna wear socks? Crazysurveypants.
34. Last song you listened to?
"Ghost of a Corporate Future" Regina Spektor
35. Last thing you ate?
A tuna sandwish from Subway.
36. Something you can't wait to buy?
Plane tickets to somewhere not here.
37. What's your favorite smell?
Sex.
38. Have you ever been on a roller coaster?
I <3 roller coasters!
39. Do you care what others think about you?
I care about people perceiving me as I want to be perceived, but I don't care what people's opinions of me are, as long as they have correctly perceived me...if that makes sense.
40. What do you do all the time in a car?
When I'm in a car, I'm driving it, or sitting next to Monkeigh poking his mouth when he yawns.
41. Do you trust people easily?
::shrugs::

Ten Facts
1. Hometown: Burlington, VT
2. Hair Color: light brown with red highlights, I think.
3. Height: 5'4"
4. Hair style: short, pixie-ish, I think.
5. Eye color: blue.
6. Birthday: January 23rd, 1989
7. Mood: sleepy, wishful.
8. Music: Currently: French rap. Lately: A lot of Death Cab for Cutie, and "Catapult" by Counting Crows, sent to me by a beautiful human being.
9. Available: No.
10. Lefty/righty: Righty.

Ten This Or Thats
1. Love or lust?: Both...the balance of intimacy/love and passion/lust is SOSOSO important...and rare.
2. Hard liquor or beer?: Beer, though I prefer wine.
3. Cats or dogs?: Cats.
4. A few best friends or many regular friends?: A few best friends.
5. Television or Internet?: interweb.
6. Pepsi or coke?: I don't drink soda...
7. Wild night out or romantic night in?: Both, though more romantic nights in than wild nights out.
8. Black or white? I like the combination.
9. Night or day? I need sunlight...but I feel more alive at night.
10. AIM or phone?: Usually AIM.

Ten Have You Evers
1. Been caught sneaking out?: Nope.
3. Done something you regret?: Nope.
4. Bungee jumped?: No, though something similar.
5. Been on a house boat?: Nope.
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker?: I don't think I've ever had a jawbreaker.
7. Wanted something/someone so badly it hurt?: Yeah.
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back?: Yeah, but I always knew it was a bad idea.
9. Cried because you lost a pet?: Yeah.
10. Wanted to disappear?: A lot.

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Current Location:
the whale factory
Current Mood:
hot hot
Current Music:
"If I Wanted to" - Melissa Etheridge
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